... I'm sorry, the title of this journal entry probably won't make any sense to most of you, but GOD, I couldn't help it. It's a quote from a movie.

You see, yesterday I watched a movie called "The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things" by Asia Argento. In short, it's a story about a young boy who lives a life on the road with his young, dysfunctional mother, and is mentally, physically and sexually abused by her, her lovers and her religiously fanatic family. It was truly the most terrifying, chaotic and absolutely grievous movie I've watched for a long, long time - if not ever - and truth is, I've been traumatized by it, no doubt.

...and yet, I find it so beautiful.

I felt downright nauseous during most of the movie; felt as if I was going to puke up my insides - I felt dirty. It was as if the movie took a sharp object and stabbed me in the heart repeatedly, twisting around. Needless to say, it's not the most comfortable movie to watch, at least not if you tend to be overly empathic, like... some people. And yes, I am referring to yours truly. D:

But even though the story definitely isn't for the faint of heart, it's still incredibly brave and beautiful, in my opinion at least. It doesn't take sides, it just... it's so honest. I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT. JUST GO WATCH IT.


Oooon the bright side... I'M GOING TO LONDON TOMORROW, BABY!!! 8D <3 I am soooooo excited! ...well, except for feeling kinda nauseous and traumatized and stuff. D: BUT IT'S GONNA BE GREAT! <3


SEE YA NEXT THURSDAY, BEETCHES! 8D



// Rebekkapi, over and out.